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Leogane

I smile knowingly at her & ask her how old she is – 20, she says. Her infant struggles in the crevasse of her arms. Eli & I, our eyes collectively survey her innocence, her willowy brown skin – there is nothing 20 about her. I gather her newborn into my arms, as she grasps on to the box of donations handed to her.

As boxes are removed from under the tarp & into the arms of these young & eager mothers, we’re careful to explain its contents – the Kotex & toothpaste is for their own use & not for the children; the Pedialite & soap is for their babies; the shampoo is to keep their hair clean, and so on. We exchange a few rushed words about cleanliness & personal hygiene – as much as we could amidst the chaos & disorder.

The number of pregnant women & young mothers was overwhelming – however, they were the lucky ones today. As they made their way to the head of an unruly line, we struggle to maintain the magnitude of it all. Of the hundreds of displaced people clustering about, only a handful would receive a box today, far more would be turned away.

This is Leogane – the epicenter of January’s hell gushing down from the skies.

Very little prepares you for the sheer desolation here. A camp leader, a middle-aged bearded man in khaki slacks and a thin white towel cooling his neck, leads us through the mud-soaked pathway. A few donated canvas tents are strewn about – the rest made unusable by the ever-present rain & subsequent flooding.

Most shelters are 8×8 handcrafted & sewn together using dried palm fronds. The floors are patchy dirt & remnants of last night’s rainfall. Through an opening slit in the cracked leaves, we witness a makeshift ‘bed’ – course 6-inch concrete blocks covered by insects & soiled patchwork cloth. Children sleep here; elderly women find their shade here.

In the distance, a wide-eyed 12-year old & her sibling kneel before a clearing. They hastily pull weeds & clear rubble using a miniature utility knife. They are quick to build their shelter as a rain cloud looms in the distance.

We make our way back to the empty truck.  How do I shoulder my backpack & climb in – with that longing to stay behind & yet the demand for onward movement?

Walk for Hope in Modesto, CA

the seed, that became the walk for hope modesto, was planted inside of me on september 22, 2007.  on this day I experienced my first walk for hope.  from the time i picked up the flyer at a coffee shop, and stepped foot onto the path at the park, my view of the world changed.  there are good, amazing people in the world, doing good and amazing things.  i feel blessed to be apart of it.  i can still feel the LOVE that goes into putting something like that together.

i believe it was almost two years later that i first contacted be the cause about me organizing a walk in modesto. i listened to a song that said humans only experience two emotions, LOVE and fear, and that all other emotions stem directly or indirectly from either one.  those are exactly the two emotions that i kept experiencing from the minute i first inquired about me organizing a walk.  LOVE because i wanted others to experience the walk for hope. fear because i was not someone who does something like organize a walk.

may 22, 2010, the date is set, there’s no turning back now.  before the date was set i would have thoughts about just not doing the walk.  there was a feeling that would always over power those thoughts, and that feeling is the feeling i felt on september 22, 2007.  all the LOVE that is the walk for hope, can not be ignored.

the day arrives and a beautiful day it is. waking before the sun is a wonderful thing.  the first walk for hope in modesto was becoming a reality.  the sun is rising as all the volunteers gather.  the set up begins, the air is cold and crisp.  we post the hand-made quotes along the walk route, stopping to set up the activity stations, starting to feel the warmth of the sun.

the walkers start to arrive, we form a circle, and introduce ourselves. at that moment i let go, i let go of organizing the walk, for the walk is happening.  the walk has a different effect, meaning, or experience for everyone depending on what’s going on in each of our lives, indivividually and collectively.  i LOVE everything about the walk for hope.

as the walk ends, the tear down begins. from beginning to end is a gift for me, but it’s only the beginning.  the first walk for hope.  what a feeling.

i want to say thank you to everyone who was involved, for without you there would be no walk for hope.  I am truly and forever greateful.

MAY ALL BEINGS BE HAPPY!

— Niccol Wiley

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